“Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But one thing about human beings that puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within.”—Sigmund Freud (via parlouz)
This past weekend was the last day of camp. My very last symphony orchestra camp. It was amazing although I ended up getting sick. Had a lot of fun moments and a lot of sad moments. I realized over camp that I’ve completely wasted a lot of time on someone that just isn’t worth it. I’ve never even existed in that person’s mind. But, that’s okay, it’s not too late to move on and find someone worth it : D
Today, I had to write a journey on who would be my ideal partner. Well, personally, I thought that it was a really hard prompt. I’m still young and I have no idea what exactly I want in him not to mention, what I want in someone else.
Only silence remains. The past is the past and we can’t return to the past. No matter how much I would have loved to stay in the past, I’m here in the present. I can only reminisce about all our joyous moments. Although I would’ve wanted things to end differently, I know that’s never going to happen because nothing I say or do will change the present. I’m simply not your cup of tea. I would love to tell I’m mad or that I’m jealous or that I’m simply give up but, I won’t. That’s simply pointless. So, as we each move on with our lives all that remains between us is simply silence.